And Angels Fall Without You Here

date: Monday, September 29, 2008

monday blues *sigh*

its monday again.
o levels are around the corner. literally.
weekdays are the worst.
i just seem really miserably and depressed when i'm back to school.

i was rather tired from school today.
i returned home and slept. hoping to null my feelings.
but it actually got worst.
first thing that came to mind was you when i was awaken.
it hurts to keep these feelings bottled up inside.

i dont know if i can handle this.
girl i miss you.

Days Go By
8:12 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Saturday, September 27, 2008

i'm a stupid boy

Stupid Boy lyrics

Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different

Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holding back the wind
she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy
Oh

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it push it around
I guess you build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down

she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy

Oh, you always had to be right but now you've lost
The only thing that ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah

Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
Yes, ya did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy, oh, I'm the same old
Same old stupid boy

It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone
Long gone, long gone
Ah, she's gone

Nobody's ever gonna love me like she loved me
And she loved me, she loved me
God please, just let her know
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Baby, yeah, I'm down on my knees
She's never coming back to me

Days Go By
4:11 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

i'll leave you be. but just know how i feel right now.

please sort your feelings out.
i'll wait.

Tongue Tied - Faber Drive

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
(Was it something I did?)
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

Days Go By
12:34 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Friday, September 26, 2008

i'm sorry

i'm sorry but i guess its too late to apologise.

Anthea. every thing i say about you here i mean it.

Just For You.

you show me that there is someone out there who cares.
you make me smile when i'm down.
you lessen the burdens i have on my shoulders.
you help me look forward to a new day.

you always look beautiful.
you always smile.
you always try to make others happy.
you always touch my heart.
you are the key to happiness.

i shall not hide these feelings.
i shall not keep this in covers.
though things might not work out.
and even if u dont have feelings for me.
i'll still love you for who you are. and i'll wait to the end.
before i say anything else.

just to let you know. i never expected anything in return.

Days Go By
6:08 AM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Thursday, September 25, 2008

seriously hanging by a moment.

i'll just hang on to what ever u leave me for now.
you decide for me.
cut the string or not.

Days Go By
10:47 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

WOW

EMMANUEL NOEL LEE CHONG GUAN
YOU ARE THE BEST. in falling for stupid stuff.

you fell for it again. NOTHING NEW.
i've fallen again and again and again and i've never learn a fucking shit.
heres the problem with me.
i never ever listen to advise given.
always havin tt glimps of hope in the far distance but was never ever able to reach it.

you knew what every word meant.
and yet you still fell for it. YOUR A GENIUS.
you saw between e lines. YOU REFUSED TO BELIEVE IT.
and see what has happened now.
CONGRATUALATIONS AND CELEBRATIONS!!!

right now my mind is telling me give up.
my heart is telling me hang on.
what do i do now?
where did i go wrong here?
what the fuck is wrong with me?
why do i always deserve these kinda things.
why does it happen when ever i begin to open myself up to others.
i pray every time tt things might work out.
i guess prayers arent always answered.

i swear i should jus bottle everything i have inside myself.
i do not know of any friend who was beside me through it all.
wait what is this word friend?
i never heard of it.
who is this friend?
what is this friend?
where is this friend?
why is there a friend?
when is this friend coming?

EMMANUEL = GOD IS WITH US
NOEL = CHRISTMAS

what a fucked up name i have.

Days Go By
8:38 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

Love or Infatuation?

you tell me.
i dont want to be left guessing anymore.
i dont want to doubt you.
i dont want to be left thinking of the wrong things which arent true.

Days Go By
2:46 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Wednesday, September 24, 2008

confused

i dont know how to explain how i'm feeling right now.
but i'll leave it as it is.
i wont say anything to you or anything here.
cos i hav a feeling if i write something its gonna affect our relations.

just dont leave me hanging.

Hanging By A Moment by lifehouse

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where I started
Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely and complete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

Now, I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing left to lose
Nothing left to fly
There is nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where I started
Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you

Days Go By
3:54 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Tuesday, September 23, 2008

i wish.

i just love you so much its just indescribable.
i wish you were more open about us with the rest of them.
i'll gladly tell the whole world that i love you.

but if you wanna keep this away from the rest i'll respect your decisions.
i just want you to know my wishes.

Days Go By
7:55 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Thursday, September 18, 2008

when you look me in the eyes.

you leave me in doubt at times.
you leave me in curiousity at times.
you leave me in suspense at times.
you leave me in confusion at times.

but i still love you unconditionally.

my week has been rather hard on me.
every second seem like a minute.
every minute seem like an hour in school.
and the fact that O levels are around the corner.
my results are not fantastic.
but i guess its better then i expected for Prelims.

well i've been posting a couple of song lyrics on e blog. so wad difference does one more make?
black balloon by THE GOO GOO DOLLS

Babys black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And youre not thinking about tomorrow
cause you were the same as me
But on your knees

A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb

Comin down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someones prayer

You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
Whats the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room

Comin down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someones prayer

And theres no time left for losin
When you stand they fall

Comin down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder

All because im
Comin down the years turn over
And angels fall without you there
And Ill go and lead you home and
All because im
All because im
And Ill become
What you became to me

i want you to look me in the eye and tell me you love me :)

Days Go By
10:39 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Wednesday, September 17, 2008

back to school.

the title says it all.
back to normal lessons after prelims -_-

today was a waste time day. half e day spent reading a book and sleeping in class.
tomorrow probably another waste time day.
and soon its going to be Olvls -_-

girl. i just want you to say those 3 words to me again and again :)

Two Princes by Spin Doctros :)

One, two, princes kneel before you
(thats what I said, now)
Princes, princes who adore you
(just go ahead, now)
One has diamonds in his pockets
(that sounds great, now)
This one, said he wants to buy you lockets
(aint in his head, now)

This one, he got a princely racket
(thats what I said, now)
Got some big seal upon his jacket
(aint in his head, now)
Marry him, your father will condone you
(how bout that, now)
Marry me, your father will disown you
(hell eat his hat, now)

Aww, marry him or marry me,
Im the one that loves you b baby cant you see?
Aint got no future or a family tree,
But I know what a prince and lover ought to be,
I know what a prince and lover ought to be....

Said, if you want to call me baby
(just go ahead, now)
An if youd like to tell me maybe
(just go ahead, now)
An if you wanna buy me flowers
(just go ahead, now)
And if youd like to talk for hours
(just go ahead, now)

Said, one, two, princes kneel before you
(thats what I said, now)
Princes, princes who adore you
(just go ahead, now)
One has diamonds in his pockets
(that sounds great, now)
This one, he wants to buy you lockets
(aint in his head, now)

Marry him or marry me,
Im the one that loves you baby cant you see?
Aint got no future or a family tree,
But I know what a prince and lover ought to be,
I know what a prince and lover ought to be....

Said, if you want to call me baby
(just go ahead, now)
An if youd like to tell me maybe
(just go ahead, now)
If you wanna buy me flowers
(just go ahead, now)
And if youd like to talk for hours
(just go ahead, now)
And if you want to call me baby
(just go ahead, now)
An if youd like to tell me maybe
(just go ahead, now)
If youd like buy me flowers
(just go ahead, now)
And if youd like to talk for hours
(just go ahead, now)

Said, if you want to call me baby

(just go ahead, now)

An if youd like to tell me maybe

(just go ahead, now)

If you wanna buy me flowers

(just go ahead, now)

And if youd like to talk for hours

(just go ahead, now)

Ohh baby

Days Go By
4:04 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Tuesday, September 16, 2008

share your pain with me and tell me that u love me.

Yea i'm up at this hour. I have a Prelim paper later at 8.10 am.
i've been thinking of you and some how i just couldnt sleep this time around.

you asked me once. why didnt i tell u that i like you on Valentines Day.
and you said something might have worked out between us then.
so i ask myself. and now?
i'm happy with how things are now :)

there a barriers between which i jus dont know how to say to you.
and these barriers prevent me from providing that unconditional love i wish to provide specially to you now.
but i cant tell you what to do. because. its your life and i can't force you into anything.
all i can do is try to talk to you. to try and understand you.
i dont wanna see you being hurt either cos it hurts me twice as much to see you feeling hurt.

heres a song for you.
Hanson - Two Tears Lyrics

I'm sorry if I made you cry.
I'm sorry if tears fell from your eyes.
I'm sorry if I hurt you,
But that was not at all what I intended to do.

But just remember,
For every tear that falls from your eyes,
Two tears fall from mine,
Two tears fall from mine,

I never wanted to hurt you baby,
I never wanted those tears to fall,
I never wanted to make you cry,
I guess I should have taken a little more time.......

But just remember,
For every tear that falls from your eyes,
Two tears fall from mine,
For every tear that you cry,
Two tears fall from mine,
For every tear that you cry,
Two tears fall from mine.

i miss you
and i love you more :)

Days Go By
2:51 AM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Sunday, September 14, 2008

14th September

wow wad a day.
happy birthday to you anthea.
though u didnt get to blow out any candles haha!

it was a great day but had abit of running around e place.
First went to TM to get Anthea flowers and a stuff toy.
was supposed to go for 12noon mass before this but changed plans.
so when lunch at Cine and hang around town.

then headed back to church where i joined e choir for mass
i swear e new song was damn sweet. it feels good to sing again.
and headed to Cartel for dinner. i had salad though i donno why lol.
well it was a great day and i enjoyed myself :)

like a rose trampled on the ground.
but u were there to lift me up again. i love you :)

Days Go By
10:54 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Saturday, September 13, 2008

WTF is wrong with me.

this is not the first time.
this is not the second time.

why do i get jealous so easily?
why am i like a foolish fucker.
why am i so damn stupid
why am i so usless
why do i fail to be there for you when you need most?

i hide my feelings within myself. only when i'm alone can i be the person i am.
why bcos the world judges every step you do.
i should just pretend the world means nothing to me
and bcos i did so nobody noticed who i really am and why am i really around.

Days Go By
11:56 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Thursday, September 11, 2008

thank you

that night was the best night i had.
the time i spent with you on e journey home.
thank you for accepting me and allowing me to send you home

you brighten my life :)

Days Go By
7:57 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Monday, September 08, 2008

Just For You.

Days Go By
11:26 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Sunday, September 07, 2008

END OF HOLIDAYS!!! SOBS

well todays marks e end of holiday.
beside not studying anything and hanging out with brandon,anthea and joy.
i think time flew hell of a fast.
and i'm having accounts paper 2 tomorrow. screwed :P never study :P

sadly during this holiday period i experience many ups and downs.
but i'm happy things are resolved.
i hate it when i get jealous at people sometimes.
sigh.

well today had canteen duty. Lack of sleep.
ended doing dirty job. like washing cups from 7am - 11am?
its like never ending work.
injured my right hand middle finger. injury under e fingernail.
why? bcos my hand was literally soaked in water e whole 4hours of washing.

followed by bball which didnt turn out as nice as expected. but nvm.
nothing really went as i planned. but fuck it.
she made me happy at e end of the day :)

Days Go By
7:56 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late

date: Tuesday, September 02, 2008

BayBeats 2008

i have to admit this years baybeats on sunday was e bomb.
i hav no regrets goin down all e way to the Esplanade to watch live performances by local and foreign bands.

among the three bands i watched, Transition was the best so far.
compared to last years BayBeats, this years theme suited to the kinda music i enjoy.
but for the more hardcore people, BayBeats 2007 would have been better. espacially for those who wanted to be idiots and mosh/bodysurf.

The band transition was a 3 piece band that really wowed me. no bassist.
1 imba drummer.(really eye catching)
2 guitarist.

thats their line up. and the new stage set up right in front of the esplanade was great.
heard Josh's dad was involved in making that stage. COMPLIMENTS!
and well e stage made the performance by Transition the best. well mayb cos there were nice seats haha! after all i did enjoy myself. :)

Days Go By
7:16 PM .

Hold On Before Its Too Late