date: Friday, December 26, 2008
boxing day =)
well what exactly is boxing day?
i dont know... go google it then =P
oh well. birthday is over
christmas is over
the year is almost over.
so a summary of the year = screwed up.
i do pray hard tt next year would be an easier year for me.
you know many people dont know i have split personalities.
many people dont know me.
and i guess its good. bcos it just tells me who my friends are.
people who take the effort to break through tt mask to see who you really are.
and people who jus judge what ever is outside.
there is a quote that says.
sometimes we put up walls
not to keep others out
but to see who really
cares enough to knock
them down.
as time passes by. many things get placed in front of that wall.
and only people who see through those things.
are friends.
people who see through those things and break down that wall.
they are your best friends.
personally i'd rather be alone for now.
Days Go By
3:04 AM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
date: Wednesday, December 24, 2008
All I Want For Christmas Is Someone New
Days Go By
8:10 AM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
date: Tuesday, December 23, 2008
and another day ends.
worked early in e morning.
had a good lunch
caught a movie with Genny
spent e whole day walking around.
had dinner at parkway.
home.
quick summary.
well there were well wishes from friends too.
thank you.
well but i'm still lying on the ground.
still hoping lying in hope.
for a miracle.
for someone to love
Days Go By
11:55 PM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
date: Monday, December 15, 2008
the demon stands again
hmm i got a new red tie =)and i think i need find time to do more shopping for my christmas clothes.its hard to find things tt catches my eye these days.maybe i becoming more picky =Por maybe i dont know wad i want MWUAHAHAHA!i'm not emocore btw...lets see i'll be busy after work e whole week.tuesday - carolling pracwednesday - JK prac (nt playing though)thursday - CD choir prac.friday - shall go plaza sing to get something.=)screw you world XDi shall be a happy person and e world can go and diemwuahahahahaha!
Days Go By
11:37 PM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
date: Sunday, December 14, 2008
dwell in darkness
you know. i never forced you to come for christmas carollingi would prefer if you didnt force yourself to do something that u dont exactly like.i thought you'd be happier.i thought you would feel less pressured.why am i saying this...would someone tell me where i'm going wrong in my life?all i wanted was to love someone.all i wanted was to make people happy.i've always been wrong in my life.and here there are people that do not have respect towards me.people never appreciate what you do eh?especially if your someone who would never touch peoples lives.if your someone who people would easily forget.if your someone whom fades away.if your someone who is hurting emotionally.i believe i exist in a ministry to serve in gods name.why are you people in Genesis?why do i exist...i should just fade away.
Days Go By
2:03 AM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
date: Saturday, December 13, 2008
looking for love
hmmm. well work is getting frm bad to worst.
i donno how i'm managing my life... i'm barely alive.
well i have to admit i've been looking for love in e wrong places.
well. feeling so tired of life...
but i don't exactly have a choice do i...
well if i dont find a date before christmas i shall spend all my pay on myself =D
heehee....
i should care more for myself.
i've been caring to much for others tt i totally forgot myself.
maybe it jus explains why i'm being emo...
haiz...
i need new shoes.
i need air horn 4 my bike =P
i need new front light. (my front light dropped in the sea =P)
well had a good night going out with Genny =D
coffee and chilling.
josh u should've just bsed ur NS friends and joined us.
Days Go By
2:38 AM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
date: Monday, December 08, 2008
all i wish is to cuddle you again
Gotta Be Somebody- Nickelback
`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
whos tt someone?i wanna know who tt somebody is.is it someone i already know? or is it someone i have yet to know?and maybe i wished it was a.....or maybe its someone else.i haven't moved on yet. i'll wait for someone to pass me by.before i decide.
Days Go By
11:50 PM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
date: Sunday, December 07, 2008
time ticks my life away
the waiting is the hardest thing to takea moment more before we break.simply ignored...i know i have to move on and walk away.but my heart still calls out to you.i don't know why...i want this pain to end...split personalities.one to show people i'm a happy person.the other is just something tt i'll keep to myself...till the day someone comes knocking on that door.sometimes we put up walls.not to keep people out.but to see who cares enough to knock them downyes i'm emo and sensitive.hate me for it...
Days Go By
11:39 AM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
date: Thursday, December 04, 2008
pay in 1 more day
soooo its alr e 4th december.i didnt notice time flew by. i thought i'm still in the month of November.so let see. 21 days to Christmas?23 days to Christmas concert.i'm so not prepared with the songs.........well at least the things i look forward to now is choir.i can just sing without worrying about my problems.and well the best part is that. christian songs are songs with the most meaning in thembut i have to admit. sometimes what you seek is more then what god can give in that moment.
i gt a long list of things to buy in this month.-earphones-pay JP back-get a HDD-get gab his xmas prezzie-get a prezzie for __-clothes for Christmas.my 1st pay aint gonna cover all this LOL
Days Go By
10:48 AM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
date: Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Funeral For A Friend - Walk Away Lyrics
All the words that we have to say
They don't leave
When the moment comes we know we have to wait
As the days go on and the places fade away
Into dirt, into dust, it all fades away
And the waiting is the hardest thing to take
A moment more before we break
If you have to let it go
And these dreams keep you awake
If you have to let it go
Walk away
And the shapes we want to see
Don't leave
Another piece that this puzzle needs
And the waiting is the hardest thing to take
A moment more before we break
If you have to let it go
And these dreams keep you awake
If you have to let it go
Walk away
And the waiting is the hardest thing to take
A moment more before we break
If you have to let it go
And these dreams keep you awake
If you have to let it go
Walk away
If you have to let it go
And these dreams keep you awake
If you have to let it go
Walk away (Walk away)
If you have to let it go
And these dreams keep you awake
If you have to let go
Walk away (Walk away)
Days Go By
9:58 PM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
date: Monday, December 01, 2008
this night is the perfect shade of blue
its time to ask.
what is the star i seek this advent.
Emmanuel - God is with us...
its time i took the step out of ur life.
i've hurt you and troubled you more then anything good.
its time i hide myself away again.
gone with the wind.
hiding in e shadows.
i'll slowly fade away from your life.
i'll be that nobody that loved you.
somethings are better left untouched.
so leave me alone.
i dont want friends to be by me. bcos i know i'll hurt u guys too.
theres no point being involved in something you have not done anything bad in.
let me get up from this fall on my own.
i'm insecure right now but. i'll take the step when i think i'm ready.
i fear e hurtful feeling... emotionally
i fear the world and what the world think of me.
just let me fall.
Days Go By
11:05 PM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late