date: Monday, March 09, 2009
i just feel so stupid right now...
i'm in a desperate need for money right now...
and i dont think i can change my spending habit currently.
for certain reasons i hate myself and i shall not say why here.
i just have to say today is not my day.
i had alot of fun today after mass with Jess,Josh,Gab & Kenji
but i lost smthing really precious to me. in a v.stupid manner
i dont know how i'm going to replace it right now.
maybe its a sign frm god telling me get out of the comfortable chair and do smthing about my life.
here i am writting this at 4am... wtf...
i think i'm a rather screwed up person living a screwed up life.
i just wish i could talk to someone special right now...
so yea... its Lent.... whats there to say about it?
i'm not a filial catholic. maybe explains why things like this happen to me. out of the blue.
when my faith is at its lowest point.
when i'm so drained out frm church work and think tt its full of crap.
how am i going to get through my days frm now on?
god save me...
i wish i was like Abraham... a faithful man
Days Go By
4:01 AM .
Hold On Before Its Too Late
